Nope! Not him!

Third blog: March 21, 2015 Saturday 8:21 AM

Okay! I don’t know at all how to start this blog. Well, t’s all about a guy that bothers my thought nowadays. It’s not because I liked him or what, it’s just that he’s doing things, I think, a sensible man would do if and only if they like a girl. It’s not that I’m saying that he liked me or what … Waaaah! It’s confusing.

So I’m going to start on how we met. It was a Friday night. Rain is falling, I think there was a storm that time and my friend and I decided to go home together with his friends. My friend liked him undeniably. HAHAHA! I liked him for her unlike her last suitor. I’m bad. HAHA! My friends and he decided to dine at the nearest fast food and wait for the rain to subside. We ordered food. Since I don’t get something free from a stranger, I didn’t let him buy me a free dinner. He offered me to join him homeward. I liked to but my friend disagree. HAHA! She thought I am going to steal her guy. Well, I’m not that kind of friend. HAHA!

The next morning, I received a notification that “Mr. I-Don’t-Know-Who” sent me a friend request but when I looked at my profile there’s no request at all. So I searched that person and it turned out that it was him. So I added him as a friend, I just thought he was just too shy to send a request because it may sound too “FC.” He greeted me on my birthday and that’s how we started our conversation online that is until now we’re still chatting. Walang palya. Araw – araw. Some of my friends tease me na baka daw kami yung magkatuluyan and I’ll just react by saying “kadiri” or I’ll just make face na tila nadidiri ako XD

Marami na sila actually na nang-aasar sakin, they’re saying, “What if kayo talaga nyan yung magkatuluyan?” “Hala? Baka may gusto yan sa’yo” and the like. Well, as for me, magkachat lang kami. No malice at all. We’re friends and that was all I ever was to him and so I am to him. Madalas lang kaming magkachat pero hindi palagi. Panggulo lang talaga ‘tong kaibigan ko that was telling na maybe he liked me because a guy would NEVER talk to a girl for a long period of time unless he likes her or something. Well, para sa’kin, it’s normal. Eh ano? Nag-uusap lang eh. Tsaka hindi nya rin alam yun kasi he never had a girlfriend. So I guess, if he knew that he’ll just talk to me once and never again.

Not all guys are the same. Maybe they get their attitude because of their experience on their past. It’s not because lagi ka niyang kausap ibig sabihin nun may gusto na siya sa’yo. Kaya tayo madalas masaktan kasi lagi tayong nag-aassume ng mga bagay na sobrang layo sa katotohanan or kung hindi naman malayo sa katotohanan, masyado naman nating pinapangunahan yung mga maaaring mangyari. Some of my friend tell me that I’m too negative about my perspective in life but actually I’m not. I just knew how to look at the possibilities that can happen if I do a certain action. Gusto ko kasing maging careful. Ganun ako pinalaki ng mga magulang ko.

It may sound absurd and unrealistic but it happened to some that their first love are their lifetime lover. I also want that for me. Alam niya yun. Yun din gusto niya, so why would I have to think that we’ll be lovers if we weren’t sure of each other? Masyado pang maaga para magdecide at magbigay ng final judgment. Hindi ako naniniwala sa destiny at kung ano-ano pa. I only believed that God has a perfect plan for me. Hindi ko Siya kailangan apurahin sa kung anong kailangan niyang gawin sa buhay ko because I knew He has His own PERFECT TIMING at yun lang dapat ang kailangan kong paniwalaan.